Merry Christmas Ryan

 Today is Christmas and I'm going to have good food surrounding me, family surrounding me, gifts surrounding me, but I can't help but to think that you are the best gift. You changed my life Ryan. You showed me love, you showed me real love. You lit my soul on fire when I first met you in 2015. I was magnetically drawn to you immediately. As soon as I looked at you I fell for you. I said to myself, "who the heck is this cute guy" lol. I can't prove it but I know you have loved me all these years too, you have been there for me all along. That is the greatest gift of them all, your presence. I don't feel lonely because I have you. You will always be within me, ingrained in me. You are a part of me Ryan. I can't even remember how things were before I met you. Like what did I used to think about? I don't even know...because for a good majority of my life, I've been thinking about you. Me and you have always had strong chemistry, strong love, and a strong bond that we both can't explain. I know you feel it too. When I feel your presence there I feel safe, I feel protected, I feel at ease. You are my calm within the storm because it sure can be a storm sometimes Ryan. You are there with me though and you never gave up on me no matter how hard things got. I went off the rails at college, made some huge mistakes that could have cost me my life, yet you still stood by me and believed in me. You are the most precious thing in my life, the most sacred. Our love is very sacred and very beautiful. I am blessed to have met you because you are an amazing person. You are different than other people, you have a different energy about you and I love you for that. There are many reasons why I love you to add to that list. lol. But I wanted to take this time and thank god for everything in my life. For being there to watch over me. This holiday is about jesus so I want to reflect on that here in this blog. There is a reason we met Ryan, there is a reason for everything. There is a reason why we love each other. That higher power had us meet for a reason, just saying. Anyways I hope your day is amazing and I love you so so much. 

Merry Christmas

xoxo-Court