My dreams will never come true with any other guy because I'm in love with you. I've always been in love with you.

 I've been thinking of you all day Ryan. And I just wish I knew more about you. It's sad that I don't and it's sad that I have no recent photos of you. It's like you are becoming a ghost, just slowly vanishing over time. I wish that everything could be with you, you as my rock. My dreams will never come true with any other guy because I'm in love with you. I've always been in love with you. I end up feeling alone a lot of the times because I just don't have you. My heart will never feel complete with anyone other than you. When I kissed you for the first time that was when I knew that I loved you. And the way we kissed was unlike anything I've ever had before, unlike anything I've experienced since. I've never felt more connected to anyone else. When I tried dating other people I'd just think of you the whole time. You haunt me. The comforting nostalgic feeling you give me haunts me. Your energy, everything about you I'm in love with. My heart aches for you every day and in my dreams, I imagine you as my man. I will never forget you and can't forget you. I love you so hard more than you can comprehend. My mind, body, and soul go to you. I don't remember how life was before I fell in love with you. I just think of all the years I've loved you with all of me. I think of all those small moments we had, even if they have only lasted a few seconds. I think of those moments every day. I crave you so bad. Sometimes it's unbearable and I shed a few tears. I'm thinking right now of the time I felt closest to you. That time we kissed for hours. We started out slow and romantic. As I was being taken over by your enchanting energy, I started kissing you harder and faster and I felt your face blush against mine. That moment I'm so nostalgic for. How I felt in that moment. We didn't have sex that night but I felt like we made love, because it came from the soul. And for once in our lives we didn't hold back. I just let go and surrendered myself to you. I want to do that again. You took me somewhere else that night, somewhere I've never been since. You are so magical and that's why I can't forget you. You infected me, engulfed me, and stamped me as yours for life in that moment. That is how it feels. Nothing or no one has ever compared to you. No one ever will because you are my soulmate. I know you are my soulmate because why do I feel such an intense connection to you that I can't explain. I felt it instantly as soon as I laid my eyes on you. It's not something I forget either. Every day my soul aches for you. Just to feel your energy. To feel your soul, your being. I love you very deeply Ryan Kelly. and always will, forever. 

xoxo-Court