I love you

 Ryan, I probably don't tell you this enough, how much I love you. If you had any idea...how profound you are. Meeting you was life changing for me. I will never see love in the same way again as before I met you. You made an impact on me Ryan. Whenever I am having a hard time or hard day I think of you and thinking of you brings me joy. If you are really there and care for me then I know you love me too. Our love isn't perfect but it's there. I just hope that I'm not too broken for you because I worry about that. I know I'm a lot and I'm sorry if it's difficult at times. Today I had a really rough day at work and my throat is killing me. I've just feeling like I'm in survival mode all the time and I'm tired of feeling this way. Sometimes I overthink my life and sometimes it feels like I have no purpose. I'm trying to heal and find myself Ryan and it's hard for me. I just want to say if you are really here and I'm not just crazy, thank you, thank you for everything. You are the love of my life, my rock, and words can't describe how much I love you. I know I haven't wrote on here in a while, but I know you know how life has been for me lately. Writing in here brings me peace when I need it, and helps get my thoughts out. I need to remember to write more. 

one more thing....

I want you to know Ryan that you are forever to me. I will love you as long as I exist on this earth. I've never experienced a stronger, more magical love than the love I have for you. You apart of me Ryan Kelly❤️

xoxo-Court