I miss you...

 I miss you a lot Ryan. I've been struggling lately with my throat and feeling so burnt out from my job. My job is absolutely exhausting. I really don't want to be negative but it's hard to hold it together and act like I'm okay. I wish you wanted me in the way I want you. I crave you more than anything. I wish I could get better, but I don't know how to. Sometimes I feel like I have too many issues, and that could be the reason you don't want me. I don't know, but I know that I don't love anyone else, I don't want anyone else, I miss you.