You are the eye of my hurricane

 Ryan, you are my calm within the storm, the eye of my hurricane. Lately has been really difficult because I work a job where I'm talking on the phone all day and it is physically draining. I can barely talk outside of work because my throat is sore, so I conserve my throat. I'm just exhausted and life kind of feels depressing a little bit. I think we also need Biden out of office and maybe it would feel a little better because the world sucks right now. 

When I think of you though, it brings me happiness and peace, sometimes sadness. I wish I could spend every waking moment with you. You are the love of my life and I wish you understood that. Everything within me, my soul, it's etched to your being. It's you who makes me feel alive inside and brings light from within the darkness. Loving you brings me purpose when sometimes I feel like I have no purpose. Loving you is what makes me feel human. You will never understand how much you have helped me, just by your existence. Just your existence brings purpose to my life. When I have a rough day, I think of you and I instantly feel better. 

Last night my nose was stuffy and I couldn't breathe and I was freaking out, but when I thought of you somehow I was able to breathe again. That's proof alone that you are my life force Ryan. I love you with every piece of me, I will love you forever until death, and in death I will love you with my soul in some unexplained dimension of time. Even if I never get to look at you again, your face and your energy will be forever engrained in my head. Maybe I'm crazy, in love with someone from so long ago, but I don't care. You are my soulmate, forever. 

I love you Ryan Kelly❤️

xoxo-Court