Lost in a sea of daydreams

 Sometimes I wonder if you still think of me, even if it's just memories from long ago. I can't help but feel like you lost interest, and I think of you being with another girl and it makes me sad. I love you, Ryan, more than anything...

You are a constant in my mind, an ongoing wave like one of those wave pools at water parks, because when I think of you it never stops. All day everyday I think of you and wonder how you are doing. I wish I knew what was going on in your life. I want to experience the world with you, but that dream seems so far away. 

Maybe I'm just a hopeless romantic, lost in a sea of daydreams, unable to find my way out. Loving you is just part of who I am, I can't change that. I can't change the way I feel, I live you, I beathe you, and it's always been you. Maybe this is my fate...loving you like a lost pirate at sea. 

I just wish I could find my land, and you are that land Ryan.

When I visualize you in my head, I imagine kissing you softly, coming home and cooking you a good meal, doing everyday stuff together, and cuddling in bed together every day, I think of every little thing I want to do with you. I just wish you knew how much you engulf me. I am forever embedded to you and you are my soulmate. 

Loving you is not easy. Nothing good in life is ever easy. I just choose to keep sailing through that storm because maybe one day you will come around. You are a once-in-a-lifetime kind of person, and no one will ever be as special as you. That's why you're worth waiting for, even if it takes my lifetime. 

I love you always

oxoxo-Court