Lately...

 Lately, I feel like I've been in a funk when it comes to life. I'm in this weird transition period, and I feel somewhat alone. Me and Eric didn't end up seeing each other before he went back up to school, and I know that that phase in my life is over with him and I need to let that go. So there's really no love life I have, no purpose right now, and it's like I'm just here. Then I fantasize about all of my dreams, and how I want my life to be, but maybe I'm just a dreamer. I imagine me and Ryan together, hand in hand, but maybe he doesn't like me anymore, maybe he's already past me and I don't know it. I want him, forever. I will always desire him in every way, and I will always think of him in the most romantic way. He's the deepest part of me, the sunken part of my heart. I just want to know what he's doing right now in life, what he's up to. I hope he didn't fall in love with someone else.