I love you deep...

 Here I lay, thinking of you again

Reminiscing on the younger years and how I wish I would have changed a few things if I had the chance

I feel like I'm in love with a fantasy, one that seems so incomprehensible to anyone other than me, but to me it all makes sense

You make sense

I wish you understood that I want to spend every waking moment with you, in your arms, warm, and protected by you

I hope for you to be my husband, the man of my children

But maybe I'm stuck in the past and can't get out

It's sad because I desire you so much but it feels like no possibility of ever getting back to how we once were

I miss when I was kissing your lips, and you laid beside me every night, making sure I fell asleep okay

I miss when you would look at me and just smile, and completely let yourself go, and just let your real feelings out instead of trying to act too cool for me

I miss feeling your energy, it was always pure chemistry

I want you Ryan and I always will

But I'm waiting for you to be ready for me...

I want you to make the first move for once

I'm here