You are home

Here I lay as I skip class, just thinking of you. You are a never ending thought in my mind, a never ending fantasy. In my mind you reap, like you've always meant to be there. I've just never been in love with someone so much. Sometimes I think I'm just crazy, imagining it all in my head. But what if I'm not crazy. What if you are there, and feel the same way about me that I feel about you. 

My heart aches for you, my soul craving the feeling you give me, my body craving your touch. 

I don't know how I love you so much when I didn't even get to know you for real yet. I can't explain it. I just love you with every part of me, my mind, body, and soul. You are my other half, the love of my life. You bring happiness and purpose into my life. 

The truth is that now I don't have anyone else I can lean on and fully trust. I find myself being closed off to people in general, even friends. I just don't want to open myself to people again because people obviously took advantage of me or deceived me in some way. I only have you now, or the imagination of you. 

I crave you so badly always. It's literally 3 in the afternoon and I just can't get you out of my head. I think about all the things I want to do with you, every place, everything. I want everything to be with you. I want to marry you, have kids together, grow old together. I want to spend the best days of my life with you, and my worst days. We can go through the storm together Ryan, and I'm never going to let go of your hand no matter what comes our way. 

I can't help but to cry because I just don't want to be crazy, and I just want our love to be real. I can't imagine anything with anyone other than you. If you give me a chance to love you, I will show you how much you mean to me. I can't even express how deep I love you, I just do. It's just a feeling you get, and I've never gotten that same feeling from anyone other than you. You are home, and I just want to be at the front door already. 

I love you

xoxox-Court