I Want You To Touch Me

 Lately, I've been feeling distant from you, and I know it's because I'm five hours away but still. I miss you a lot, Ryan. I just can't ever seem to get you out of my mind. 

I want you to touch me again, but I want to actually feel it and have it be real. I want to feel your magnetic touch on my skin, sending thousands of electrical currents through my body.

I don't know why but the first night I got to college I felt like you were there with me and I felt you touch my pussy from the outside of my panties and just that touch alone made me die inside and be reborn🤣 I still think about it to this day. 

Now yes I could just be imagining but I like to think that it could be you

Just one touch is all it takes for me to feel orgasmic, and animalistic inside

Always desiring you, and awaiting for you to touch me again

 I even just miss the feeling of you being there, just laying beside me, watching over me, and protecting me in my sleep. 

Sometimes while I'm driving for Doordash I like to analyze the road and sometimes I see someone who looks like you or drove your same car from high school and it makes me think about you. 

I will never want anyone in this world more than you, and sometimes that scares me, but I'm also not afraid to take a leap of faith. 

The reason it scares me also is because I always think of what would happen if we never end up together. I just know I couldn't do it with anyone else and I wouldn't want to settle. I know I don't want to be alone but I'm also not wanting to settle either. I just want you Ryan. 

Maybe I'm a hopeless romantic but I'd love to call you mine one day

I know I want to be yours forever...

I love you

xoxo-Court