Missing you

 I just got to college and I can't stop thinking about you Ryan. My boyfriend is way too clingy and he's getting annoying. I just need space to breathe, and I just can't get you off my mind. When I was driving into town I saw someone that looked like you driving a grey car and looking at that person made me sad because sometimes I feel like you're so close, yet so far away. All I've ever wanted is you, but I don't know if that will ever happen. Sometimes I feel like you're there but I also think I could just be crazy. I want you to know that I won't forget you, I won't stop thinking of you every second of every day. You are all I ever want, all I ever dream about. I've been sad because I feel like you're farther away now. At least when I was at the house I felt like there was a possibility of you being there, but now that I'm at college I know it will be near impossible for the possibility to be real. When I feel like I'm close to you I'm happy. I get excited to go to bed every night just to imagine that you could be there, watching over me while I sleep. I love you Ryan Kelly. I always will. 

I'm going to try to make the best out of these next 6 months at school or however long. Please don't fall in love with anyone else. 

xoxo-Court