You

8 years later and I still love you just as much as I did when I was younger. I don't know if you forgot about me yet, but I really hope not. You seem busy and involved in your career. I just hope you aren't too busy for me. I just know I miss you. I know I'm going through a dark time and I get down on myself a lot. I seem okay on the surface most of the time, but sometimes I have really negative thoughts and I can be really hard on myself. Today is a rough day, and I just wish I had you with me by my side. I always think that my mistakes messed up my chances of being with you, even though I'm trying to claw myself out from rock bottom. I know I have potential and that I can shine bright, but it will take time to get there. 

I think of you constantly. You are a never-ending thought in my mind. You reap in my dreams, and in my daydreams, you caress my skin and kiss me softly, never stopping not even for one moment to catch your breath. I miss the feeling of your warm lips. I felt them once in my life, and we kissed for hours because you were so addicting, so satisfying, your lips so tasteful and wet. You couldn't stop either until I got tired and gave up. I just want to feel you again, I want to feel you in every possible way imaginable. I want to feel you within me and out of me. 

With you, there is nothing but uncontrollable desire. Once I start thinking about you, I just can't stop. 

Every dream I ever dreamt of relating to love has been about you. I just love everything about you, every piece of you. You're sweet, kind, loving, sexy, focused, motivated, powerful, respectable, protective, handsome, hardworking, funny, nerdy, a natural leader, mysterious, loyal, and breathtaking. I just want you in every way, I just love everything about you. Once I start looking at you I can't stop because you're just so addicting to me. You're everything I'd ever want in a man. Our chemistry alone is from another world. Your smile makes me so warm inside and makes my day brighter. When I feel like you're with me it makes me feel so special inside. I just want to be with you every second of every day. I want to fall in love with you over and over again, even if that makes me crazy. 

I will love you forever until I die. My first love, my last love, my love for eternity. 

No one else has ever compared to you, and they never will. No matter how many guys I try to date, it's just not the same. No none will ever be you, no one will ever come close to you. I know I'm crazy and writing all this makes me sound crazy, but I'm crazy for you. 

I hope one day we can be together, because if it's not you it just wouldn't feel right. I want you and you only. And I'll never give up, never in my lifetime.

I want you RK, you only

My love is deep for you, the deepest I've ever fallen in love with anyone in my entire life. It really was a privilege to be able to know you and to love you. I just wish I knew you more. I'm always curious about what you're up to and I just wish you would talk to me. I always dream that you will one day decide to talk to me again, and we can just catch up and I can be in your presence. The feeling I get from you is unlike any other, and I just want to feel close to you again, like how I once did. 

I love you RK, my dearest love. Please never give up on me.