This Airbnb Is Beat & I Just Want Ryan Instead🤣

 This whole thing with this Airbnb is so lame and awkward now🤣

Now that my "boyfriend" who's really my ex now cuz we ain't labeling nothing no more, knows that I like Ryan lmao this shit is awkward af. Then I'm just out here missing Ryan and wishing I was home but I can't go home yet cuz I already told my mom I'd be in the mountains even tho I'm not🤣 Like I feel bad that I don't want the bf like how he wants me but it is what it is. I know who I really want, and it's you. I don't care if it makes me crazy, I just want you Ryan and that's it. 

Like all this trip has been is fighting and then when we not fighting we fuckin🤣But we already ran thru all the condoms he brought so at least I get a break now. Honestly, I don't know why I try to date guys just for dick cuz it never works and then I just feel alone

I just want you and I don't give af about anyone else

Ugh....

It's not even like the sex this trip been all that either, half the time I don't even want it🤣 Dude broke my back literally and my shoulder hurts so bad too. The bed mad uncomfortable to where I can't even sleep on that shit

BRUHHH

& I'm in pain so bad and I just wanna cuddle with you instead

I'm out here sleeping on the couch and not even wanting to be around him lol

I know this is a different post but I just miss Ryan

It sounds crazy to want a high school crush so bad but I just do🤣

Fuck tryna date other ppl I'm done

I be showing this dude I don't want him but yet he still out here wanting me & idk why cuz it ain't working fr