The Green Light

 I watched The Great Gatsby yesterday, my favorite movie. I realized how I'm like Gatsby when It comes to Ryan. Gatsby was reaching out to the green light, hopelessly trying to hold onto the past. Gatsby was so in love with Daisy, and they had a thing back in the day, but she already moved on despite her feelings. Gatsby was so close to getting Daisy back but it was already past him and he didn't realize that. All those parties, all the effort he put into getting her back, she couldn't even show up to his funeral. I love the whole symbolic side of the movie, I love the vibe of everything. 

I also feel like I can relate to the movie because I'm still hopelessly trying to grasp the green light like Gatsby and maybe I need to let it go, even though I don't want to. 

I love Ryan, and I always will forever 

But the truth is that he isn't there and that it's all playing out in my mind

I think I'm just crazy and I need to let it go

I really want to see if he really hits me up one day, but I don't know

I just know I want him now, and forever 

No one else has ever given me the same feeling I get from him and I think that's why I'll never get over him

I've already tried so many times but I can't 

I just want to kiss him forever and never let go

I want that Gatsby and Daisy type of love, except for it to actually play out